From aggression to contemplation

I have a confession to make. During my early thirties everyone was taking advantage from me, my confidence was low and I was scared of voicing my opinion. My always nice personality hid all of that to keep everybody around happy while I was sad and boiling with anger. I couldn't believe that my life was going under everyone's will but mine. I had to wake up unless I wanted to be miserable in the future.

One day, I sat down in a park bench to relax for a bit and saw a muscled lad punching and kicking a bag hanging from a basketball poll. For some reason, I felt I had to talk to him so I came over and asked him what sort of martial arts he was doing and he answered Muay Thai. Then he asked me to punch and kick the bag like he'd been doing before and afterwards he asked me to changed my clothes and join his training session.

We trained together the day after and he promised to keep going with me but never showed up again. I was dissapointed but not so bad to quit Muay Thai so I went on by myself with a Muay Thai app and an Adidas fitness app. I watched martials arts tutorials and had a great time with UFC as well. My progress moved on day by day thanks to my discipline and as I was getting more into it I bought more equipment.

At the beginning my training sessions were fueled by anger. Later on, I recognized that being angry wasn't the answer to my lack of confidence so I changed my mindset. The new me was aware at some point that agression brings more agression and redirected training into exploring the possibilities of my body with a quote by John Danaher. "Focus on mechanics not on repetition". Awareness first in other words.

There's a lot to talk about what I've done exploring martial arts on my own. Maybe I'll add a new category of entries with blogs about my progress, they deserve more time and attention. However, I want to bring your attention to other hobbies I do to that combined with my MMA training develops my skills with my body.